I Don't Need a Metaphor - COMPLETED
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Second installment of the Personal Life of Rose series, if you can call it that.
This is the second journal to write out the details of every trifling experience I come across in this weird phase of my life. The first book (Love Me So I Don't Have To) was about me as a teenager, going through all the shit most teenagers go through. Now, I've been forced to move on from those things, and here is how it all goes.
Updates are not consistent. There is no storyline. This is just the pure, unadulterated thoughts, feelings, and emotions of yours truly.
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