Lighters (Dan Howell)
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For Beth, it was just another night. Getting fucked up to take her thoughts and pain away, even if its just for a few hours, or even days. Then, she just does it over again. And over. And over. Constantly avoiding anything and everything she can, while it lasts. Smoking and drinking her troubles away.
For Dan, it wasnt like any other night. Getting fucked up just to take his thoughts and pain away, even if it was only for a few hours. Maybe even a day. Promising to himself this is a one time swing, and he'll never do it again. He says it over. And over. And over. He constantly avoids anything and everything he can, while it lasts. Smoking and drinking his troubles
away.
Beth's simple "Can I use your lighter?" Will cause her a journey she never asked for.
Dan being asked if someone can use his lighter will cause him a journey he never asked for.
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