At the back of his mind, he wondered, "Just how long can I keep this up? How long do I have to keep doing this.. Why am I doing this in the first place.." Set during the time when the boys were in a dark place and even thought about breaking up. Inspired by their speech during MAMA 2018 in Hong Kong. Notes: These are what the boys could've possibly went through during those tough times. Again, this is just my take on how things might have happened. It is still a work of fiction. Will involve a girl in future chapters. Romance. Jimin-centric but there will be POV's of the other members as well. Timeline: Before Happy Ever After Fan Meet Vol. 4 Japan, before 2018 FESTA and before Fake Love comeback. Thank you for reading! ARMY x BTS! Story is also posted on Ao3.