Jace Piston has being dealing with the repercussions of his father's abuse all his life, his trauma manifesting as OCD or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Whether it's turning door knobs three times before entering or frantically tugging at his shirt collar, his life consists of a series of rituals that he is convinced will keep him safe and out of harm's way, his father's way. Though when he learns his father may be released from prison, his world starts to spiral out of control. With an overworked, detached mother and a pair of ignorant, overbearing older brothers, his best friend, Leo, seems to be the only person in his corner.
Leo Moon isn't without his own struggles. At eleven years old he suffered a major brain injury in a car accident. After years of therapy and treatment he'd gotten back to living a normal life or as normal as he was going to get, with a couple deficits here and there. The most debilitating being his lack of emotional regulation and depression. Things could get very dark for Leo very quickly, but lucky for him he always had Jace to light the way out his dark tunnel. Leo had plenty of people in his corner, supportive parents, a beloved little sister, and a menace of an older brother, but no one understood him the way Jace could.
The two best friends were just that, best friends. (Although other people always thought them more.) In their eyes nothing could change that, especially since neither of them worked too well with change. But things get a little blurry when shit starts to hit the fan. With Jace's dad possibly being released from prison and Leo's inability to keep his emotions from getting the best of him, will the pair survive their turbulent freshman year? And if so, as friends or something more?
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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