DEAD CLOWNS IN MY HEAD

I called this collection as such cos of the fear and possibly hatred I have for clowns. Ever since I can remember, this is the one fear thats been constant. When I write I tend to use the word "clown(s)" to represent any bad feelings I have. Feelings that put me in a depressed state. I use the name "Deadclown" as a way to deal with my mind when I go through periods of being sad, angry, frustrated and so on as this, in my ideal world would be how I would like these clowns to be - Below is a brief description of my poems

* Free Me of My Untruths & I Might Just Die -are about inner conversations I have with myself at times, as I'm sure a lot of people do. I don't know

* Lonely Journey - for Kurt Cobain who's been a huge influence in my life

* Fractured Solace - about suicidal thoughts which is why I wrote the poem in the shape of a ribbon to honour the ribbon for "Suicide Awareness"

* Shadows Steal My Breath - how I imagined Heathcliff to be feeling after the death of Cathy. Written as though I were Heathcliff in an ABC style

* The Night I Welcomed Death - originally meant to be a song I was writing but instead altered some of the words, removed the chorus and changed it into a poem

* Inside Rape - not about a sexual rape, it's about the way I tend to not give my positive thoughts any room to develop. I always tend to soil them with negativity

* The Key (part 1) Death of The Keyholder - originally meant to be a story I was working on (like a Tolkien style Lord of The Rings kind of thing) but it turned into this poem.

* Forever My Darkness - There's a lot of letters in this and when I see a lot of letters or a lot of anything I guess, I tend to think of them as people crowding me and making me feel uncomfortable like I don't belong. This is why I chose to seperate the words "This is me" from all the other words. I don't mind being an outsider. Thats just how it is

* 9 Titles and Still 1 State of Mind - Using the other 9 poem titles