Marred Love

I will not fall for anyone.
It is my motto.
My insurance.
I don't wanna feel. I don't wanna get hurt.
I have to secure my heart before it sees another downfall.
My guideline has to be there before I blindly step too far and stumble. Because there will be no one there to catch me.

Just the way no one was there to catch me last time I fell.

There was only one person who could re-kindle my fallen heart.
Blake Murray.
And he did.
He wanted to be my everything, but he could never understand my darkest fear.

In the past, it wasn't that no one didn't try to catch me.
It was that they fell first.
Being the grenade they were; in turn, exploded the foundation beneath my feet.
My world collapsed and my heart shattered.
And from there, I fell.

My darkest fear was that Blake would fall, and with all my power I couldn't prevent that from happening. Without him, my world would then tumble.

This had happened to me before and I didn't want to have to go through it again.