Three words that I cannot say

She has everything but can't say three damn words that mean everything. Until she loses the one thing she wanted to say the words to;

The bitter taste in my mouth wouldn't go away.
The pure hate I have towards these words was hard to describe. The difficulty I had trying to push the words through my chapped lips was excruciating.

My body trembled as the cold numbed my fingertips without his hand in mine. Tears ran down my sunken in cheeks. As I wiped them
Away with his old varsity jacket, his sent still present In the worn out fabric.

For so long I've dreamt about what it would be
like to say these words and mean it. But now crouched before his grave I said the words i never could say when he was here. " I love you"