Just Forever Depressed
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"Frantic and confused. Mind feels bruised. Its a connection you fused"
"Mind still shaking as i continue to think, a broken heart i see in a blink.."
"I'm trying to numb the pain in my heart, by numbing my arms as i start"
"And even if I'm not physically in the stars, six feet under never leaves my mind."
Welcome to 'Just forever depressed'. Where I accept my fate that my destiny was never written to end in happiness.
This is not your typical story, actually it's not even a story. This book includes different little parts of just poems, just extracts, just writtings, just thoughts, just emotions, just fears, just sadness, just memories, just time.
I started this when I was 13, in 2013. And I plan to carry on adding to this book until one day my heart feels content to press complete.
(edited in 2020, re edited in 2024).
Slowly but surely...
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