"Listen Kenzy, I know I've been an ass and truthfully maybe you shouldn't even bother returning my calls. You're right, I've been nothing but awful since we met, driving you away yet desperate to keep you close"
My heart clinches, but I dared not breathe. Too afraid to give in, too afraid that if I reach for the phone, I'll call. I'll call to make it right. I want to make it right, because this man affects me more than I ever thought he would. But it isn't right. I can't give myself false hope.
"Please just talk to me, let me explain. It's not you.....it's me. I'm the asshole. You don't deserve this, you didn't. ..."
He pauses and I hold my breath still, fearing he'd hear me breathe, yet, it's only his left voicemail on the phone. Not him
"I'm sorry.......dammit!" And that's it, our one sided conversation ends and I'm more broken than before.
What happens when your world crashes? When the people you thought would be there forever literally runs through the door without a second glance backwards?
What happens with taking a step outside your comfort zone?
What happens when that step outside that comfort zone turns into....well unexpected?
Personalities clash, feelings are crushed and just maybe that one person you ignore turns out to be the damn life savers.
Easy enough, but did I forget to mention they belong to someone else?
Will what happens in summer stay with summer?
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"It's too much to remember everything and everyone, all pain and hurt is killing me day by day little by little.
I wish I could remove all the pain and move on in my life.
I wish I could find an eraser or Better a delete button, so that I could start from beginning, without any misery or pain."
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"Hey Eva, you know you can trust me, right? "
He asked me again cupping my cheeks, I can't let him continue this. It had to stop now or it would be too late. I can't risk everyone's life specially his. If hurting him means, him being alive then I would do it without thinking. Again and again.
"Eva are you even listening to me?"
Noah asked moving his face closer.
From this close I can even see the scar which he told me about, its just below the border line of his hair, it can be easily conceal but from this close its more real.
His eyes, they are magical. I would love to look at them all the time and never get tired of looking at in them.
No, I cannot do this to him, I can't be selfish, I have to do something this time.
"No" I answer and walked away from him.
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