Why you? (A Rusame story) (on hold)

I'm putting this book on hold but I probably won't come back to it, I've lost motivation to write anything
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This is my first human country story, so no hate please.
First, warnings before story
⚠️warning⚠️ this story will contain
Suicide
Self harm
Bullying
Possible smut
And Gayness (is that even a word?)
If you don't like any of these, or are sensitive to them, please don't read
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America has been bullied at school for years, he's finally had enough and decides to end it all. He goes up to the roof of his school to end his life, but when a certain someone stops him, he slips and ends up falling. Ame hits his head pretty badly and loses his memory.
Russia is the school's biggest bully, he highly disliked America because seeing Ame with a group of friends that aren't mean or judging makes Russia feel alone and pissed off. After a few years of being in the same school with America and having a lot of classes with him, Russia starts to build unknown feelings for America. Russia takes the situation of America not remembering their bad history as a chance to make things better and to possibly have a relationship with him