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~Still Worth Fighting For~ #wattys2018

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(Rewrite of Better Than Perfect~)
I'm Ridley McKinnon, I'm 16 and I come from a broken home with a heavy heart- broken by my best friend, Matt Westfall. I've loved him for five years, knowing he only loved Melinda, who he'd been with for two. Matt's the kind of guy who will lead a girl on without realizing it. He knows I'd do anything for him, and knowing that seems to be an advantage. 
I'm willing to go to hell and back for him, even though I know I shouldn't. 
Every love story has some sort of ending, they just make it seem happy so no one knows the truth. They talk about how the girl gets the guy she wants and they dance away together into the darkness when the sun sets. 
How they're happy like the couples on TV.
But no one ever talks about what happens backstage. They aren't happy, kissing each other goodnight. 
They scream and throw things at each other. Do all they can to hurt each other. 
Everyone falls for the wrong guy at some point, but if you do it all the time, just to get over the past, well, what's the point?
"So take a look into my eyes one last time 
So we never forget 
The way we were before
When we came alive at the moment we met 
This is still worth fighting
Still worth fighting for"
We aren't all sunshine and rainbows, and we can't chase them when they aren't there. 
So why keep trying for a love that's slowly dying?

*LOOSELY based on a true story, somewhat*

*possible trigger warning*

(probably gonna be editing)All Rights Reserved

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