Hidden Pain I Feel Deep Inside
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Ongoing8m
Last published Wed, Mar 11, 2020
Dear Diary,
Today's my first day of school and I wanna learn more things on Earth so I go to school. I know many say ' You have a very beautiful life they wish that they were in my place' sounds like a compliment but not actually. Everything that's happening to me is messed up but you know what people say 'Happy life, Perfect life" but can't they see no one's perfect, that having a smile painted on your face means you can have a perfect life.....LIES, LIES, LIES, EVERYTIME I BE MYSELF THEY WANT ME TO CHANGE SO THEY WOULD HAVE AN ADVANTAGE FORCE A LAUGH, A SMILE, EVEN THOUGH EVERYTHING HURTS BUT I KNOW THERE'S SOMEONE THERE who can save me.... where ever you are wether you like me or hate me as long as I can see you happy maybe that's all more than enough. That's all I got for today to share to you Diary see you again.....
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