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How would you describe me? Phaedra. I guess you can say I'm emotional. You could say I've been through a lot. You can even say I'm gay. which is all true. But I describe myself as a fighter or someone who needs help to change. I want to not be scared of love. I want to be someone who doesn't hide behind a label so I won't get hurt. I am Elizabeth Phaedra Taylor and I want to be ready for change. But will I ever be? Will I need help? Will I ever be able to trust again? Will I ever get over the death of my mom? Will I always be overshadowed by my sister? Will trust be enough to change me? Am I really gay? Will my best friend stick by me? Will I find out the truth? Will I fall in love? Will I use a person for my own selfish reasons but end up hurting them and myself in the process? Will I ever get the answer to my questions? I didn't ask for change, But I have a feeling its coming.
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He left me, I cried for him everyday hoping this was all a joke and he'd come back, but no he left. I trained hard making sure that my bow and arrow skills stayed bright, fueling my work with anger. I have mastered everything and I refuse to forgive him, I hate him. My anger grows more everyday as my sadness dissapears. The argument that started it will also end it he doesn't love me and I refuse to be a fan of his. So if he does care he would come and find me only he doesnt care and never will. These are my thoughts, but not my wishes. I want him to care, but I don't want him to find out why. He can't save me from my thoughts they are mind after all. Noone can or will know because they will send me away. My thoughts they tell me to do unspeakeable things, but they disapear when he is around, they don't like him, they are afraid of him. That's why I try to stay a respectable distance from him. My thoughts are dark, but they don't control me, I control them, I can get them to stop in fact I already have, they only fuel up when I'm angry or upset. "Why can't you tell me?" He yelled. "Because if I do then you'll leave me!" I yelled back. That is right he will leave and make sure they take you away. I covered my ears the voices they were back. "Shut up." I dropped to my knees. He ran to me. "What is wrong?" I looked at him as the voices stopped and hugged him. This was my guardian and it all started the day he came back, Came back for me.
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