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How would you describe me? Phaedra. I guess you can say I'm emotional. You could say I've been through a lot. You can even say I'm gay. which is all true. But I describe myself as a fighter or someone who needs help to change. I want to not be scared of love. I want to be someone who doesn't hide behind a label so I won't get hurt. I am Elizabeth Phaedra Taylor and I want to be ready for change. But will I ever be? Will I need help? Will I ever be able to trust again? Will I ever get over the death of my mom? Will I always be overshadowed by my sister? Will trust be enough to change me? Am I really gay? Will my best friend stick by me? Will I find out the truth? Will I fall in love? Will I use a person for my own selfish reasons but end up hurting them and myself in the process? Will I ever get the answer to my questions? I didn't ask for change, But I have a feeling its coming.
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