Diary of a little black lady

This isn't a story with a happy ending but rather years of watching from the background, not saying anything cause I'm afraid but it is eating me up and killing me inside so here I am writing it out. My only advice I can give is if you are like me an depressed introvert with friends or family that hurts you try to express yourself, there could be a chance things can be fixed and restored. I wrote this cause I no longer care and I am leaving with a chance of them not knowing how I feel or why I left