"I'll keep my distance to you" I typed with a sad smile on my face then send it to him, this will not be my goodbye cause I hate goodbyes, there is no good at goobyes
How this things happen to us? how I end up breaking my own heart again?
Trust issues? that's a total bullshit, because of that, I made him hate me, I made him avoid me and the hell it hurts me a lot now
How can you love someone you didnt know personally or, you don't have an idea if he is real?
Honestly, I don't know, I just feel it, I love him but I don't have a chance to say it to him personally anymore, why? because I'm stupid.
I'm afraid to fall harder for him but, it already happen and now, I don't know where this story of us will take me.
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
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It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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