Fade Into Darkness
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Last published Tue, Jun 17, 2025
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Cara wants to shrink. She wants to get herself as small as possible, to push the limits of life. She has no care for safety or life. No concern for anything but her anorexia nervosa which guides her closer to the edge every day. She is willing to do anything to dodge treatment and make sure she shrinks, even if that means fading into darkness. But now it's life or death and her family is in pain too. Can she turn herself around in time or is she too far gone?
⚠️ Strong Language, Eating Disorders ⚠️
NEW CHAPTERS RELEASED WEEKLY, EDITED BEFORE POSTING BUT IF I MISS MISTAKES, PLEASE COMMENT! ALSO OPEN TO CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM
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