What am I doing here?

I've never really been into writing poetry. Frankly, I'm not so sure I even comprehend how to write it. However, lately i've struggled to go to sleep at night, and I've written down some of the words that have troubled my mind. I don't know. I don't know what this is. Honestly, I don't know why I'm even sharing them, because some of these thoughts are deeply personal. So, if you read any of my poems, please be kind. I'm only human, and I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT I'M DOING!