Are you Living or just surviving?
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- Chapitres 5
Contenu pour adultesEn cours d'écriture1 h 4 min
Dernière publication dim., juil. 12, 2020
"You know, I always felt like an english project. My whole childhood after that stupid test was just scripted for me by the expectations of others. I was told I have to get straight A's because they expect it and don't want to be disappointed. And you know what? I really don't think I'd be able to handle disappointing everyone. Since I was 5 years old people have said I'll either end up like the smart successful guy my dad was or the crazy person my mom became. Spence, I really don't wanna be like my mom. I just want to satisfy everyone. You know go to Yale, get an important job like becoming a lawyer, or doctor, or politician; at the very least a teacher. I really don't know what I want but I'd rather be like my dad than become like my mom"
"You won't become your mom"
"You don't know that"
And he was right Spencer didn't know that. No one knew because she was diagnosed as schizophrenic and signs of it won't show up until he's in his 20s so they would just have to wait it out. Spencer really hopes that Andre also wants to do the whole waiting it out thing together because he sure as hell does.
"Your right I don't know for sure, but I know you, and I'm telling you straight forward right now that letting people's expectations control your life is breaking you apart slowly and unless you also want to drive yourself mad by listening to others, than I suggest you listen to me closely right now: Stop being a little bitch and do what you want for once. At least try to be happy because right now you sound like you've already given up"
"Maybe I have Spence, maybe I have"
(BoyxBoy)
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