Dear ...

"I never thought my life would turn out this way. I had almost everything I'd dreamed of and on the way to having a perfect existence.

So why don't I feel like this is what I want anymore? Am I just the literal representation of 'you only want what you can't have'?

...I didn't realise how bad things were getting, but I suppose that's what happens.

After all, it's hard to make lemonade out of what life hands to you, when there's no sugar stopping it from being sour."

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Delaney has been through a lot in her twenty-two years on earth. She's always been optimistic, and had the utmost faith that if she just maintained patience and understanding that she could achieve anything.

And for the most part this was true, and saw her through a lot of tough, conflicted years to where she is now.

But she has reached a crossroads in her life, and she takes a look through her diary to try to work out when it stopped being exactly what she'd always wanted.

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WARNING: this story contains brief, vague or lightly detailed mentions of sexual abuse, self harm, drug use, sexual references, violence and some explicit language.