Complete Felicity

fe·lic·i·ty
noun
Felicity is defined as a state of feeling great happiness, or the ability to appropriately express your emotions or thoughts.
a. An example of felicity is a state of great happiness.
b. An example of felicity is when your thoughts are expressed appropriately and elegantly.

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Funny isn't it, that you can love, or hate, someone so passionately but not knowing the reason why. That you can't feel anything but happiness yet you lock yourself in your room to sit with your shadow being your only companion, thinking to yourself why you feel so miserable.

Funny isn't it, that the only time you cry is when everything is overwhelming yet you can't say anything. Not because you're not allowed to, but you just can't explain your own feelings.

Also, isn't it really funny that you can't remember your past? That your memory is chopped and blurred, and all you remember is the feelings you either love or hate. That you don't remember how hurt you were but running away is your best self defense.

Life is funny. Just when you think you got it all figured out, get excited about it and feel like you know what direction you're heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, east suddenly west, and you're lost.

How devastating it is to live but not living?

And at the end of the day you repeatedly ask yourself,
what is happiness?