*!this story will contain swearing, depictions of violence, character death, mentions of suicide, mentions of self harm, attempted suicide, canon character death, character death,LGBTQ relationships, mentions and depictions of homophobia, mentions and depictions of transphobia, bad parenting, mentions of abuse, depictions of abuse, suicide baiting, use of bullying, use of panic attacks, use of anxiety attacks, use of ptsd, mentions of blood, use of blood.!* PLEASE read at your own risk!