The Sucidal Love (Dazai x oc )
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  • Parts 1
  • Time 6m
Ongoing, First published Oct 22, 2019
As a little kid I knew I was different. 

So did everyone else...The feared me...treated me like garbage except my parents...THOSE TWO PEOPLE WHO MADE ME BECOME LIKE THIS! 

A monster like everyone says I am...If i haven't been chosen to have these abitly that they had. You think I would be like this?No... I would be out there playing and being a normal kid I wished to be... but that's not going to happen... 


Later on with my useless and pointless years my parent died I turned 14 and they died by a Mafia group I shall no speak of... a guy with bandaids  all over his body and up to his neck then his eye and had a bandage on his cheeck/draw line... I could never forgot that face... the pain in my eyes was like a reward to him... I regreted hating my parent and still do to this day....

I was kicked out of the orphanillage  and was called the same thing  a freak, Monster , mistake, waste of space... but this time I was not alone  a guy with whitish grey  hair  and has a weird bangs was also kicked out and been called the same thing...
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[Completed] There's three of us. Triplets. We all have each other's backs. There's me, Maeve. The one with red eyes. People call me a murder. Satan. Evil. Anything really. All I cared about was not them. Certainly not them. Those people didn't matter to me. What mattered was my other two siblings. Everything I have ever done, was for them. Even if they don't realize it. Even if they think I was the big bad monster. To the world, I was a cold heartless monster but to my siblings? I was loving sister. I was there if one of them have a nightmare. I'm there for them. There's Damien. The oldest out of us. He's the one with white eyes. The one who people who also call Satan and evil and all of that bullshit. You ever wonder if those goddamn bullies got tired of bullying other people? I do. Not the point, stay focused Maeve. What was I saying? Oh right, Damien. He likes cars. Building, tearing them apart, spray painting them, anything about cars. Then there's Angel. Sweet, sweet Angel. She's the youngest out of the group. She has blue eyes, different from us. She's the lucky one, per say. The one who doesn't get bulled. She has the personality like a five year old but we love her to pieces. Me and Damien try to protect her against the evil's of the world. She shouldn't go through that like we did. At least she has a normal childhood, or some part of normal. We didn't have the best childhood growing up. Well, me and Damien didn't. Mother gave Angel the best childhood she ever wanted. Sometimes, only sometimes when she was drunk or whatever with her stupid boyfriend did she punish Angel. That was once every blue moon. She was convinced me and Damien had Satan in us. While Angel, well she thought that Angel was an angel from Heaven. Now, let me stop rambling. This story will be an emotional roller coaster. Especially since we get sent to live with our older half-brothers. Mentions of self-harm, abuse, rape, miscarriage, violence, cursing, suicide attempts.