Hear My CRY

In my mind I'm a disappointment.

No matter what I do or hard I try, nothing is ever good enough. I also feel like a burden, like I'm the reason for everyone's stress/problems, because to me I am. I'm told this at least twice a month. I'm told of the many expenses my parents have, most of which are related to me. I try to find ways to lessen their burdens by making 'rational' decisions. Most of which involve not asking them to buy me material things or go anywhere. Whenever I want to go somewhere or do something, I save my 'own money' just to avoid stressing them for my own selfish needs. I even chose to not graduate so as to not put them under any more financial stress. To me that was the solution however that wasn't the case as they made me graduate anyways saying they "didn't want me to regret my decision".

I don't talk back to my parents much, I prefer to take what they throw my way and keep quiet, because to me it is easier and less troublesome to not reply.