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A look inside my diary

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Dealing with mental illnesses such as depression and anxiety, writing in my diary has been a good coping mechanism for me. I thought I would share some of the things I've written, to spread awareness about mental health. 

I am NOT doing this to get any sort of attention or to make anyone feel sorry for me. Mental illnesses is an important subject to me bad it needs to be more spoken about. 

This story will contain things people might find disturbing, such as mental abuse, depression, anxiety etc.
Do not read if you know these are sensitive subjects to you... You are never alone. 
Take care!!All Rights Reserved

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One Million Branches [Vic Fuentes Book One] by fidjdhhd

Paige, a girl from a broken home, her sister killed herself a few years ago and since then she has been depressed and guilty. She does all sorts of self harm and is suicidal. Her parents blame her for her sister's death, they beat her, make fun of her, and make her feel terrible about everything she does. Paige's only friends left her when she became depressed, leaving her with one friend who eventually stabbed her in the back and told everyone, everything. To escape everything Paige goes to the park and climbs trees, one day she starts talking to a class mate named Vic and they become friends, they tell each other everything. Will there friendship lead to something more? Or will Paige be left heartbroken? (TRIGGER WARNING) Sequel: It was all for you, all for you and more

Altered by LuellaOpal

Have you ever met someone who alters the course of your life? For good or for bad, they've come in, given and taken, and then- BOOM! Your life was never the same. There's always a change, an altering of reality. When you meet those people, the reality that you've known your whole life is suddenly gone and a new one has taken its place. When those moments happen, there's no going back. You can try to return to the way things were but nothing, and I mean nothing, can take you back to exactly how it was. That's what happened to us. I think that's why we're still trying so desperately to get back to some sort of normalcy. Four years later and we're still on the ground, crawling, in search of the happiness that was lost that June. Summers will never be the same. Midnight walks through my neighborhood will never be the same. Field parties with bonfires and loud music will never be the same. I still don't know why you left and what lead you to the decision you made. What I do know is that we're here. We're alive and we're pushing forward to the future. A future that you're not a part of. But in some ways, I'm glad you're not a part of it. I just wish it wasn't like this. *** TRIGGER WARNING*** SA, abuse, suicide, substance abuse, and mental illness. This is a complete story that is much like life; fast, full of surprises, and not always how we want it to be. This has been a project of mine for over three years. It was self-published on Amazon, but after some issues in publication, I decided to just upload it on here. I hope you fall in love with these characters like I have. The friends in this story are trying to make names for themselves, figure out who they are, who they can trust, how to love, and how to separate themselves from a restrictive community. As in any coming of age story, they will experience growing pains... but will they survive them before its too late? PLEASE READ THE TRIGGER WARNINGS.

Elizabeth by Everest438

Some things are never meant to happen the way that they happen. Some things are not supposed to break the way they break, but we are not in charge of this earth. We cannot oversee how things are fixed and how they break. We are only capable of putting the pieces back together...mending broken hearts and healing empty souls. Why him? They ask her constantly. Why the heartless man to comfort the hurting soul? Because, she always responds, even after countless mood swings, crazy demands, constant reassurance, and stupid arguments, he never gave up on her. Why her? They would ask her every time. He'd respond the same. Because I don't want to court her in bed. I want to love her in life. Polar opposites attract. Elizabeth and Romeo attract. They just want to love each other in life through the pain, the agony, the abuse, the depression, the anxiety, the mafia, the breaking, the fixing, the helping, the hurting. It's just love at the end of the day.

Me Working Through It by Alexithymia49

Just a bunch of poems I write to help get through life. You can see my journey through anxiety, friendships, relationships, sexuality confusion, family nonsense and depression. You might relate. I love comments (including grammar corrections). I do not own the artwork, I give credit to the artist when I can find it. I do own the poems so please give me credit and all that stuff. I do doubt anyone would be using my poetry for anything but anyway. I have a new book titled 'You.' which you'll be able to find in my account. I will only be updating that book from now on instead of this one as this one is completed.

I've Got It Under Control by myrealnameisasecret

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WIshing Away Curve Balls by NaideenBunnell

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White Rabbit by In-Decent-Pause

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It was under control by myrealnameisasecret

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