Breaking into laughter

This story follows a fifty year old man ,who tries to re live a lost dream ,one that has been buried in a life that just pasted by way to quickly .

A loving husband and father,a provider that was always around to guide help and support a young family , giving into a system that swallows people whole and spits them out ,old broken and defeated .

How I'd hated that system. Id made me feel so sad ,crushed any hope of me seeing myself become that comic ,the kid wonder,class clown the entertainer.

I don't think there's been anything more certain in my life then the comedian who would come on television and make me laugh ...actually it was more like how can I make someone laugh?

Maybe it was a way to bury the sadness that I could never be that funny or, I could leave my mark in comedy like many comedic genius's before . Who thought a goddam chicken crossing the road would still to this day have a punchline that sticks today ? Funny isn't it how something so simple could set the course for what was to come.

Open mic night , Canada

The room was not Smokey ,
It was warm and inviting , the stage was lite ,a single mic stand stood alone , we are all here to see if in some strange way we can bring a smile to someone's face, it sounds so simple yet as people we are so unique to what makes us laugh and why we will not give up for the pursuit of laughter , really , it's what keeps us here on this planet and not on the other end of bridge or shotgun . It's sad but man is it true.

It was intimidating thinking to myself that
shit , things are about to get real.

I heard that "next to the stage"holy shit my stomach started to churn like a cat was trying to break out of a potato sack , it sounded so loud to me , I was starting to feel this overwhelming feeling of "I cant do this ? What am I trying to prove?
Who the fuck wants to listen to me anyway ?

And then it happens, this entire shitstorm
Calms the fuck down and you become this other person ,ready to crush it.