The small metal contraption on the floor wasn’t usually so terrifying to Ashton. But right now in this moment it was the scariest thing he’d ever seen. He was scared about what number would pop up on the tiny screen when Luke stepped on it. He feels the same fear he felt when he saw Luke on the floor in a puddle of blood and vomit sobbing. It broke his heart to know that the boy he loved was hurting himself this way. Of course Luke didn’t know about Ashton’s feelings, he was too absorbed in his own self-hatred to notice the loving glances Ashton shot his way. Luke hated himself too much to realize how much he was loved.