Survivor's Guilt
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2011: It's been ten years since the sky literally came crashing down around Yael Malkah and upended her world. Now she's returned to New York to visit her ailing grandmother. With no other family, it's up to her to take care of the family business, even at the risk of her sobriety.
Haustin Macauley is a firefighter struggling to come to terms with his survivor's guilt, and does whatever he can to drown out the event that still keeps him up at night, even taking reckless risks. The only thing that keeps him going is the people he saved when hell came crashing around him, the only proof he has that he isn't a complete failure.
When Yael meets the man who saved her life that fateful day, she can't help but feel a connection in her grief. As Haustin and Yael grow closer, the two must find their way through the minefield of family problems and post-traumatic stress to the possibility of a life that might resemble normal again.
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