Sweet struggles of an human heart.

Life sometimes give us a Hard tasks to get through. Some tasks made for a good purposes such as being better with job,friendship or even your family. From another side they are those tasks which we are failing with a reason.
Tasks,which we failed because it was a fate to end up that way,not our choice. But in the end...it throw us into the sorrow.
All of those failures are getting heavy on your back. Your heart feels unable to find a proper emotions because there is so much questions you can not find an answer to.
Your mind is blank,begging your thoughts to find a way from this pain. However,you just stand and watch them leave. Because you've met so many people to simply know who they are and what are their intentions with you.
Watching others talk about their lives,mentioning their friends and family...Was breaking his heart. Because he knew he,himself,had no one to talk to. No one to hug when he wants to break down from crying. Even the love of his life lived so far away. For years,he had tried to find some accompany but everything ended up same way. Being used.. Either for his abilities or just until they found a good replacement. He kept trying. So much that he kicked himself out the safe zone just to approach and talk. But at this moment...He just wanted to cry. He was tired. So tired from being such a loser even if he was trying best to succeed,get better. He just wished to get his lover to hug him.. At least one night. To make him feel warm. But knowing even that is impossible to reach yet,he just cried to his sleep. And with a tiny smile,believed to get better. To get all his mistakes fixed. For people to see him for who he truly is. The love he had for the another...was the only thing as far to keep him fighting. His sleep was peaceful and gorgeous for a one reason...The smile he had kept through the life no matter what happened. Unbreakable smile with an honest purity of emotions which said only one thing... He wanted to feel like a human too.