No Way Back
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An inside look into a depressed young adults mind. See what depression looks like from a fresh new perspective, and be ready for the ultimately true experience of what sinking, not swimming, feels like.
*Excerpt* (*WARNING MAY BE TRIGGERING*)
"You know how you see those cheesy fucking posts and quotes saying something along the lines of 'Having Depression is like drowning, but you can still breathe.'? or some bullshit line like that? You wanna know something crazy? That is actually one of the most accurate sayings about depression. Only... it's a lot harder to describe that it isn't just that feeling. It's that feeling like you know that you don't want to die, you know you want to get better, you know you want to keep fighting, but it's that overwhelming feeling that if you try, and fail.... you will be broken. It's that awful feeling in your gut when you see a friend. It's that brief moment in the morning where you don't remember anything. I guess in a way.. you could say that depression is feeling like you're living your daily life, but there's something between you and everyone else. Like a shield. You can't actually feel the joy, but you know you should. It is the utter gutting feeling that you should be feeling a certain way, but you can't."
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