Your Own Disaster
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Meeting him brought me the best days of my life, the feeling of euphoria was felt just being in his presence. Pure bliss. Meeting him also showed me the pathway of my own self destruction. No one thought I would ever end up here, buried beneath mountains of poor decisions and regrets. But here I am. I blame him for this mess. I did not have control of any of this. Did I? Fuck.
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