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Changkyun knew the first few days after the announcement of the lineup would be hard.

He didn't think the few hard days would turn into a few weeks, which would then turn into a few months. 

****

It was at this moment that Changkyun finally realised it was unlikely to get any better. 

There he was, standing in one of the many toilets of the Starship Entertainment building, struggling to breath with shaky legs in front of a mirror. The other members were still in the practice room, oblivious to their maknae having a mental breakdown. His manager was blissfully unaware of how the others treated Changkyun. His parents were under the impression that everything was fine.

Changkyun, however, was most definitely not fine.

And his members only began to realise just a little bit too late.





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My Protector || Changki ✓ by star_alight

"I, Im Changkyun, will protect you, Yoo Kihyun, from the monster named, Park Mingyu-" "Kim Mingyu." He said chuckling a little bit. "Oh..." I smile shyly before clear my throat. "Kim Mingyu, until the last breath." __________________________________________________ ~Previously known as Hybrids~ Hello readers. This book originally published 4 years ago before I decided to take it down after 1 year. But when I go through my old comment sections I see quite many of you actually liking this so I decided to publish it again exactly as it was 4 years ago :) Highest Rank: 1 in #monstaxfanfic 1 in #Changki 2 in #im 4 in #yoo Started : 3rd July 2020 End : 3rd August 2020

the kids don't wanna come home | SVT BXB by goldenautumnhours

on the run from their horrible parents, thirteen teenagers meet up in the music room of their school everyday. because the only way to forget everything is music- and each other. But of course, life just said fuck these 13 boys in particular and soon they are in the middle of a whirlwind of revenge-seeking mafia-mobs and dying criminals. [ under editing ] Ships: SeokSoo SoonHoon JunHao Meanie VerkWan JeongCheol ChangChan If you're sensitive with the following themes, please don't read this book! -bullying -self harm -suicidal thoughts / suicide attempts -abuse -depression -rape (no actual scenes, but it's mentioned) -boyxboy 18+ Scenes -violence !THIS IS PURELY FICTION, IM SURE THE PARENTS OF OUR BOYS ARE ACTUALLY THE SWEETEST AND NICEST PEOPLE WHO LOVE THEIR AMAZING SONS MORE THAN ANYTHING!

empty ~ kurotsuki by 11k41y0

"the secret is to just be empty." his reflection looms over him as if it were a giant wave waiting to devour him. he feels the noose of his subconscious grow tighter, suffocating him with the voices of dysmorphia. as it tightens, his control begins to slip. "you can trust me...they don't know what you need...this is what will satisfy you." in his mind, he is healthy and this is normal to want to be thin. he has to be the spitting image of a national-playing athlete. he has to be for his boyfriend; who would want to date someone this ugly? he has to be for his family; he can't fail their expectations. this is normal. kei is stubborn. too stubborn for his own good. "you're beautiful." lair. "you're perfect just the way you are." shut up. "i love you." why? it may be too late for kei to realize that he is no longer himself. he is nothing but a hollow shell living in foreign skin. inside, he is empty. *** this story is inspired by jaidenanimations and BoyInABand's song "Empty". i do not own the song, nor do i take any credit for the lyrics. i do not own haikyuu or any of the characters. these characters belong to Haruichi Furudate. this story covers mature topics that may be triggering to some individuals. viewer discretion is advised. lowercase intended.

Are You Okay? | SoonSeok ✓ by soonseokluvbot

[Don't forget I'm still here for you...] -------------- Being a part of a group called Seventeen was an honor, but sometimes it was harder than I thought. It got worse and worse every day. I felt weaker and weaker. Maybe everything could have been different if I told others about my problems. They could have helped me sooner... [A Soonyoung x Seokmin fanfiction] ------------ TRIGGER WARNINGS: - self-harm - suicide attempt - abuse ------------ ------------ Cover by myself ------------

~•love through healing•~ [Hyunlix] by K1606N

THIS BOOK WAS FIRST CALLED -CRAZY PATIENCE- !!!! STARTED WRITING: 25-12-23 (25th of December 2023) PUBLISHED FIRST CHAPTER: 3-5-24(4th of May 2024) PUBLISHED LAST CHAPTER: ?? [Love how the cover of this book explains so much about the story😍] Hyunjin just moved in into his new appartement, everything is going well. He just finished school and got his master degree for being a therapist, his dream job. He lives in a small appartement, which is great for himself. His parents always cared for him and supported him so ofcource his life is going well. That's until he meets his first patient. A boy with a ton of trauma's and insecurities, who is full of anxiety and sadness. Will Hyunjin get to use his master degree to unveil all those secrets or will it only make his own feelings harder to keep for himself? Who knows? /// "---so let me help you okay?" \\\ "You can't help me..."

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MINSUNG - My heart is yours by Wantsobad_MinsungSkz

-My first story. Please don't judge! My future stories have more potential I swear. Cringe and rushed! -Lee Minho tries to mostly isolate himself from people especially new ones that enter his life. He doesn't let his guard down for anyone. But what happens when Han Jisung a quiet, shy boy (at first) joins his school. How will this 'new' boy change him. This is a story of going through rough and sweet times together. Not giving up on one another and loving each other endlessly. ⚠T/W⚠ Angst SA (se*ual assault) bullying SH (self-harm) Family problems Smut Highest ranks: #3-opening up #34-sexual assault

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"I, Im Changkyun, will protect you, Yoo Kihyun, from the monster named, Park Mingyu-" "Kim Mingyu." He said chuckling a little bit. "Oh..." I smile shyly before clear my throat. "Kim Mingyu, until the last breath." __________________________________________________ ~Previously known as Hybrids~ Hello readers. This book originally published 4 years ago before I decided to take it down after 1 year. But when I go through my old comment sections I see quite many of you actually liking this so I decided to publish it again exactly as it was 4 years ago :) Highest Rank: 1 in #monstaxfanfic 1 in #Changki 2 in #im 4 in #yoo Started : 3rd July 2020 End : 3rd August 2020