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Changkyun knew the first few days after the announcement of the lineup would be hard.

He didn't think the few hard days would turn into a few weeks, which would then turn into a few months. 

****

It was at this moment that Changkyun finally realised it was unlikely to get any better. 

There he was, standing in one of the many toilets of the Starship Entertainment building, struggling to breath with shaky legs in front of a mirror. The other members were still in the practice room, oblivious to their maknae having a mental breakdown. His manager was blissfully unaware of how the others treated Changkyun. His parents were under the impression that everything was fine.

Changkyun, however, was most definitely not fine.

And his members only began to realise just a little bit too late.





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