Dead inside
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  • Parts 17
  • Time 1h 3m
Ongoing, First published Nov 03, 2019
Chase X Anti
Chase moved back in with his brothers. Stacey and his two kids took off after his job wasn't bring enough money in. He lost his house and is feelings for his brother? Wait what? Can chase show this glitch love? Or will Chase drowned in his cheap booze and bad thoughts. Or will his brothers threw the beast at him? Or will a darker force get to Anti and take him away?
(Here is the first paragraph)
I was cold. Wait I'm always cold. I'm broken too. I'm always broken.
My mouth tasted of some cheap beer I could get my hands on. My brothers thought it would be a good idea to move back in with them. So, Henrik could keep a good eye on me. I can't blame them. I'm broken and a waste of space. My wife that I loved with all my heart just used me and took off. My two lovely kids ran with her. She is filling their head with terrible rumors about me. They would never want to come back now. Stacey why did you leave? A single tear ran down my sunken cheeks. My eyes where grey and red. I was lucky I was even crying. I thought I ran out. My stomach warned me for food. I haven't eaten a real meal in a good couple days by know. All I want is to drowned myself in the booze I get and forget everything. I'm not special. I'm useless. And the earth doesn't need a scum bag like me here. I'm just a waste of space. I'll be better off dead. 

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Suicided thoughts and actions
BoyXboy
Heartbreak
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"Y-you can't run away you have our baby," he says screaming "Bella Open the door" He yells and hits the window. "Please come back baby I'm sorry!" He looks at me and through the window, I can tell he isn't sorry. "I'm sorry" he repeats and I feel tears coming. "You...hit me" I sob. "I didn't mean to I was drunk!" he taps the window "Please baby I will work on myself, just get inside" He whispers. I start panicking. What happens when he finds me? Will he hurt me? Or kill me? I lock the car and turn the engine on. "baby please please" He sobs. I drive out of the garage and start the GPS. Once I do that I stop on the light and put my hand on my bump. "It's just you and me, " I rub my belly and start driving. This is it.