"My Past Self"
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In the past i used to think that WHY does everyone changes. I was never fond of new places, stuff. I never liked it. And i promised myself not to change ever. Not my habits not my favorite things. Nothing to be exact but still i guess the cruel world didn't like me being ME or the decision i made to myself of never changing.
'Everything is going to be OK' is a phrase i repeat most of the time in my head. But it seems like the magical spark from this sentence faded a long time ago which used to make things a bit at ease.
i m safe from the world's harsh reality if i didn't change, if i stopped reacting to things that i cannot handle. But nothing worked . HA! Who was i fooling anyways, i guess myself.
( EVERYTHING DID AND ALWAYS WILL CHANGE WHEN ITS TIME IS UP)
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