⚠️ warning ⚠️ this book contains suicidal thoughts, smut, strong language, fluff, and sexual jokes. If you are uncomfortable with any of that then DON'T read!! Welcome to Rutland Vermont, where the girl known as Emma Lee lives. Her childhood crush has started flirting with her best friend Courtney and little does he know he is slowly picking Emma apart, she feels stupid and ugly and wants to escape. She has thought about changing schools but she just can't leave the most popular boy in school AKA her crush AKA Zach Grant, she still likes him even though he treats her bad at times. Like calling her fat or ugly, but she's too scared to disagree, so she always agrees. And the only thing she is good at is embarrassing herself.