Qadr- Blessings & Lessons

I stared at blank paper which was lying down on my desk for only Allah knows how long time. I wanted to pendown each pain of each shattered pieces of my heart. But I couldn't do that. Fingers in which b/w the pen held, felt numb. The one who proved hand is voluntary muscle forgot to mention 'Exception when ones heartbreaks'. Numbness is when you hear your heart break further & further, You want to shed rains of tears deeper & deeper, but not a single droplet comes out. You want to scream your heartout, but your cells are too tired even to function its anatomy. Its as if your sensory nerve disappeared from your own system. Yup!! Its the same bloody numbness. Then gradually that numbness changed to pain, The pain which can be felt in your bones. This pain rushed out in the form of words instead of tears.
Even now my muscle are involuntary ;where it kept on scribbling the words which heart felt even before signals sent to brain. "You knew this day would come. You were anticipating this day. You knew your soul & heart would shatter into those nano pieces where repair is beyond impossible. You were well prepared for this day. Then why? Why? Why you feel this numb? He didn't love you. No he did, cause I have seen pain in those eyes. I have seen those sparks in them when I saw my reflection in it. Yup! He loves me, But.. But not as bad as want him to make me his wife, maybe not as...

Qadr:
When its time for souls to meet, there's nothing on earth that can prevent them from meeting. No matter where each may be located.
And if its time for souls to depart, there's nothing on earth that can prevent them from departure. Even if their hearts are locked by each others soul.

All you have to do is to have faith in your Rabb. In the end, you'll be granted what is best for you.

The journey of three bestfriends- Aani,Alayna,Sheen; facing Qadr of Allah: Blessings n Lessons.