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Why am I?

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𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘳, 𝘴𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘢 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘵; 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶?

Evangeline has lived her life with a dark and sinister voice in her head, a 'companion' that brings forth urges that she is horrified by. Helpless against her own growing misery, the darkness threatens to consume her body and soul, forcing her dainty hands to commit sickening deeds. All she ever wanted in life was a purpose to strive to, a goal to reach. A light at the end of her ever darkening tunnel. Why is she on this world, living this life, doing these things. 

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This story will contain a lot of dark subjects and won't be for the faint of heart. Gore, abuse, mental illnesses and other triggers will be heavily present through out several chapters. Please consider your own comforts and discomforts before reading this. Copyrights for the cover pictures used go to their original artists, the ultimate design is made by me.All Rights Reserved

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