Wearing My Smile | ✔
annaclarue
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  • Parts 90
  • Time 5h 11m
annaclarue
Ongoing, First published Nov 15, 2019
Mature
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"I wondered if you'd ever thought that the name your parents had given you felt like sharp knife twisting through your heart in its prayer. I'd never asked you that before, now I'd never get to."

Having been together since forever, Roo struggles in the wake of his best friend's, Sam, suicide and what it means to be the remaining half. Nine months later, Roo is writing down his last letter for Sam before finally leaving his hometown for good.

(Word count: 67,000+)

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STATUS   : COMPLETE




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TRIGGER WARNING: 
suicide, suicide-ideation, physical abuse, psychological abuse, alcohol and drugs abuse, graphic violence

Mature content tag for moderate cursing, graphic violence, and sexual scenes. While the characters are mostly in their teens, I recommend this book for people above eighteen due to difficult topic and most likely triggering scenes. 

It's very character-driven so it gets slow sometimes. 

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