It's Always Been You
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His shocking blue eyes locked on mine, his breath warm against my ear as he whispered, "Kiss me."
I froze. Five minutes ago he'd slammed my books to the floor like I didn't matter, and now he stood close enough for my heartbeat to betray me. I couldn't tell if he wanted me to love him or hate him-or both.
But wanting him was the problem.
Because somewhere between the confusion and the chaos, I'd fallen for Ethan Walker. And the moment he stepped into my life, everything I thought I knew-about myself, about loneliness, about safety-shifted beneath my feet.
Nothing was simple anymore.
Not with him this close.
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