Ramblings of a teenage broken girl

Ok, so this is my first ever post on wattpad, so I'm probably doing it wrong. Anyway, this is some stuff I wrote like an year ago, because I was missing my crush a lot. It's a really long, complicated story. the point being that I liked him, he /maybe/, /possibly/ /could've/ liked me, but we never said anything and then fate separated us and I haven't seen him since. These ramblings or however you want to call them are really personal and they might sound pathetic at points. Also, they were written last year, and since then my english has significantly increased, so you may find some parts kind of clumsily written. However, my best friend told me once I should post them somewhere, because they're "very relatable" (I don't see how on earth they could be realatable since they're so specific, but whatever), so... here they are! I really hope I'm doing everything right :/
Enjoy!
P.S. the words in italics at the beginning of each "chapter" are lyrics from different songs, just search them on google if you're curious :)