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Dreaming of Drowning

TestamentsOfAnguish

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Parts 3
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TestamentsOfAnguish

I need someone, anyone, to hear my feelings. I can't keep them to myself anymore. If I do, I'm afraid I may do something I'll regret. I want to talk about my feelings of suicide, and some of the reasons I feel like taking such drastic actions. I have nobody else to tell, because I know they'll just think I'm crazy. So please. If it won't disturb you too much, and you have a little time, read this book. I'm truly desperate. I feel like this may be my last resort. Hear me out. Thank you.All Rights Reserved

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