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If Only For Him

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Reads 91,736
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Parts 28
Time 2h 47m

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**WARNING this story contains abuse, explicit language, sexual scenes,self harm and rape.**

"Baby,let me take care of you."His lips graze my neck and my grip on his jacket tightens.
"Adrian,I can't,we can't." My voice is low and husky even to my own ears.
"You can't deny you want me,just as much as I want you." 
"At what cost Adrian? Do I have to lose you over some fling, after all we've been through?"
"Hey, look at me." His fingers tilt my face up. 
"You'll never be just a fling, okay babe?"
"Yeah but..."
"Shhh." His lips cover mine and I forgot what my argument was in the first place.

Sarah Spencer never knew a day without abuse from the age of 5, with an absent mother and an abusive controlling father,Sarah has no friends,until Adrian, the gorgeous bad boy next door,who notices her shaking hands and bloodshot eyes.
Is Adrian too late? Would he ever be able to get past the walls Sarah has built? Or would she survive? If only for him?

A story about love, hate, hope and the days when you want to give up but keep fighting anyway.All Rights Reserved

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