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The Collection You Don't Want to Read

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Parts 7
Time 1h 16m

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This collection is about a 32 year old, Nicholas Collins, and his struggles with his severe PTSD, depression, and anxiety, after years of child abuse. 


I'm adding more as I write more stories! I hope you stick around to read them, currently there are 5 stories!

***TRIGGER WARNING***
this story contains severe anxiety attacks, depression, and mention of suicide. If you are triggered by any of the above please do not read. 

This story also contains a gay couple and a transgender character. If you do not like any of this please do not read.



*Please do not copy any of the characters, these characters are very dear to me and took me many years to develop. Thank you!*All Rights Reserved

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K I N G by TheZombie13

Neil was caught between a hard place and a rock. His lungs heaved as he desperately tried to suck in air, but to no avail. He couldn't breath. Tears ran down his face as he smothered his strangled sobs against his pillow. He didn't know how long he could keep up this act. All he wanted was Todd. Todd couldn't sleep. He hadn't been able to for the past few nights. All he could think about was Neil. His lips as they closed over a cigarette. His brown eyes sparkling as he practiced his lines as Puck. His wet hair and how it clung to his neck after a shower. Todd squeezed his eyes tight as he tried to will away the wicked images. He shouldn't be staring at his best friend like that. It was unnatural. It meant he was a fairy. Yet Todd couldn't help but stare. A story of two boys coming together, overcoming some of life's obstacles, and falling in love with each other; until one is tragically taken away.

Love: Fighting Depression(boyxboy) by ItsJustinAveryy

This story and it's characters are basically full of my own insecurities and fears, so yeah enjoy. If you start getting anxiety because of it I am so sorry, and know that I am here for you. I understand all the pain of bull crap so many have to deal with, on top of rigorous classes and a mental disorder. Eden is your typical American teenager... Kind of. His family hates him. He hates him. His old friends hate him. His old boyfriend hates him. Basically everyone he's grown up with in his hometown hates his god damn guts. All because he's gay, stupid right? As always, in almost every single story ever, something happens that will change his life forever... Ohohoh so spooky and mysterious and stuff okay bye end of description of story. I am currently in the midst of rewriting this story, so go to my profile and check out My Name is Eden(which is the name of the revised version of the book :D)

The Art of Breathing Underwater by DavidEAnderson100

𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐘 𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐑 𝐘𝐀 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟏 For bipolar fifteen-year-old Aaron, growing up in '90s Dublin, being gay is a choice. It is a choice between risking alienation from his conservative Catholic family and close-minded friends or drowning under the weight of his secrets. So discovering he is falling in love with his witty, bi-racial best friend, Robbie, an aspiring actor, plunges Aaron into a sea of confusion. Swimming against the tide of expectations, the young men set a course through sex, drugs and Bowie concerts, an outlet from a world that doesn't understand them. But weighted under the pressure of maintaining a double life, Aaron sinks into a deep depression. When a shocking incident puts his life in perspective, Aaron must decide whether staying silent and invisible is worth losing the only love he has ever known for. 𝗙𝗲𝗮𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗶𝗮𝗹 𝗪𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗽𝗮𝗱 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗳𝗶𝗹𝗲𝘀: @nonfiction (Memoirs/Sex, love and relationships/ Mental Health and Awareness/ Self-discovery) @DangerousLove (Hot Nerds, Rockstars & Musicians) @AmbassadorsUK (Very British Teens) @Romance (Young Love) @YA (Love, Actually) @beauty (Feel Good Stories) @GeneralFiction (Freestyle Fiction-Miscellaneous/ Finding Love-Romance) @PsychologicalNovel (Triggering Romance) @ProfileMentalHealth (Self Love) @NA (Let Me Share The Truth) @YARomance (A Diary of Everything) @TeenFiction (Teen Featured) @HistoricalFiction (Decade Fiction) @BullyingPrevention (LGBTQIAP+ Pride) @ComeSitWithUs (LGBTQIAP+ I Am Who I Am) @wattpadfriendsandfamily (Always with you) @FreeTheLGBT (Coming of Age)

In Our Heads by Shady_D

Everyone's a little trapped in their own heads. Cassian is the only child of very wealthy parents and has grown up being moulded to their expectations of him. He's a great son and a model student while being popular and confident and he consciously strives to be perfect, so much so that he has never even had an unscheduled moment to breathe or think and the thought of making a mistake terrifies him. Growing up in a household where he is basically the caretaker of his little brother, Theodore is plagued by anxiety that he keeps to himself as he tries to make his family look as normal as possible to people on the outside so that he will not lose his brother. When the quiet, lonely Theodore transfers to his school, Cassian cannot help gravitating towards the new kid despite the disapproval of his friends and parents. He's determined to pull Theodore out of his shell only to realise he may be in one himself.

Where Am I? (boyxboy) by dontgetyourhopesupp

Dawson has had it rough. Not as bad as some, worse than others. He lives in constant secret, heart ache and pain. After his parents died he under went a transformation, rendering him unrecognizable. After three years of pain, cutting, and one suicide attempt, he returns to his hometown. As Dawson hides his identity, it will become harder and harder to seal away the truth when faces from the past start revealing themselves, including his gorgeous ex best friend Alec. Only Dawson isn't the only one with secrets and when a lie reaches Dawson's ears, it will take all he has in him to protect the one thing he has left. Himself. Dealing with depression is hard, and Dawson will have to learn it's not something that can be handled alone. He'll have to open up his heart once more, even if it risks him getting hurt, if he wants to achieve happiness. ---------------------------- This is a trigger warning, to anyone that has problems with self-harm I recommend you don't read this as there are some graphic scenes. Also, this is a boyxboy story, so if you don't like hot steamy action between two boys, this is not the story for you. If you don't like it you shouldn't even be reading this anyway and I will not tolerate hate. You do not choose your sexuality and no one else has the right to make someone feel bad about who they are. Also, if any of you are having problems, or the story has triggered you, please inbox me. I love to hear from my readers.

Count The Stars by sunburststrat

Elijah Rosen, an introverted seventeen year old with a love for football, sneaks out almost every night to get away from the problems he faces during the day. He feels like his anxiety is taking over his life, and the only place he can go to escape it is the pitch black night right outside his window where he can be alone and let his thoughts run wild. But after he finds Adam Chang sitting at the bottom of an empty pool in the early hours of the morning with puffy red eyes and bruised hands, he begins to find comfort in something other than the dark. Only, Adam has a few problems of his own. And with pressure coming from his family, his friends, his school, and his own mind, Elijah isn't sure how he'll make it through the year. ------- "I think if you weren't here, I wouldn't be okay. I'd..." I trailed off, not wanting to say the words that we both knew were true. "Hey," he said softly, "I'm just glad I'm here, then." He started to let go of me, but I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him like I never had anybody else before. "I'm glad you are too." (featured by FreeTheLGBT: 1/13/2022)

The Bet | Gay BxB | by dollygrand

The rich kid with a perfect life is challenged to make the bad boy with a bad temper fall in love with him - and things get messy when he finds himself enjoying the little imperfections this brings in his life. ***** Nicholas has it all: the looks, the brain, the money, and the fame. There is absolutely nothing wrong in his perfect and secure life. Everything he could ever want is within his reach. The life where everything is handed to him is not one he enjoys, so he doesn't think twice when his friends challenges him to make someone they choose fall in love with him. And that person is Jax. Foul-mouthed, mean, and occasionally violent, Jax is by far the worst person to be seduced, but Nic is determined to win this bet, even if it means losing limbs. There are just two tiny problems: 1. Nicholas isn't gay. 2. Jax hates him. || Gay || BxB || MxM || LGBT || Romance ||

A Knight w/ Shinning Eyes by bl_principito

[Royals Series] Neal and Eric's Book: *Can Be Read Separately* *Its a 2-in-1 story my guys* There was something Neal hadn't felt in a long time. It was a mixture. There was an emotion, he didn't know he could feel, then there was Fear. It was a bad combination. Especially when it came from someone who could read him crystal clear. ___ I have no excerpt for this story. I can tell you, however, that this is a book I enjoy both writing and reading. I am incredibly happy by how this story is turning out and hope that readers like yourselves find it in your hearts to give the story a chance. The support, love, and appreciation are always welcome. Thank you <3

Outrunning Karma | MxM by ElijahDiva

After the traumatic events of his past Caleb has forged a new life for himself with Jason in a place nobody knows them, or so he thinks. Will him and Jason's newfound love stand the test of time and can old acquaintance be forgot? **THIS IS A SEQUEL TO "THE NAUGHTY LIST" I RECOMMEND YOU READ THAT FIRST BEFORE READING THIS** TWs Self Harm Smut PTSD Mentions of Rape, Abuse & Sexual Assault This story is not promoting, encouraging, romanticising or glorifying topics such as abuse, suicide, self harm, disordered eating, sexual abuse/misconduct or anything like that, it is just showing what the affects of it can be like especially for LGBT+ young people. Please be respectful in the comments and if anyone is struggling do reach out for support!

Break Me (Phan) by MySecretsX

COMPLETE *** In this world, you're marked with black. That's if you have a soulmate, at least. Everyone is destined to cross paths with the one who is meant for them, at least once in their lives. When you and your soulmate meet, you will touch, if only briefly, and the exact area of skin you touch with the other turns from black to white, with streaks of blue, purple, yellow, all marbled in with each other. Daniel Howell is well known in town. People cross the street if they're approaching him and newcomers to the neighborhood are warned about his presence. Exactly like the Lester's were. But Phil Lester has other ideas, he saw the pain within the boy, how bad can he really be? (A story about abuse, self-destruction, but ultimately, love. Please read safe.)

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K I N G

Neil was caught between a hard place and a rock. His lungs heaved as he desperately tried to suck in air, but to no avail. He couldn't breath. Tears ran down his face as he smothered his strangled sobs against his pillow. He didn't know how long he could keep up this act. All he wanted was Todd. Todd couldn't sleep. He hadn't been able to for the past few nights. All he could think about was Neil. His lips as they closed over a cigarette. His brown eyes sparkling as he practiced his lines as Puck. His wet hair and how it clung to his neck after a shower. Todd squeezed his eyes tight as he tried to will away the wicked images. He shouldn't be staring at his best friend like that. It was unnatural. It meant he was a fairy. Yet Todd couldn't help but stare. A story of two boys coming together, overcoming some of life's obstacles, and falling in love with each other; until one is tragically taken away.