Resentment

"Its been two years, Robyn. Why now? Had I not gotten into Julliard, what would you have done? Would you have stayed away and let my heart continue to hurt? Would you have never told me any of this?"

"Look, I 'onestly can't tell you what would've 'appened, aight? All I know is dat it doesn't matter. You're 'ere, in NYC again, standing right in front of me, and I'm 'ere tryin tuh make it right."

I feel so weak... so stupid... but she's right. She's here, apologizing and trying to make it right. And that is not something Robyn Rihanna Fenty does.

I'm tired of being without her... I'm not built for this life without her, and I hate myself for it.

I love her.