Fresh Start

If you're going to fall in love with me, here are some of the things you should know beforehand: I cry often. Whether it is during a movie, a sad song on the radio, or a regular sunday morning. I'll cry even when I speak of things that have hurt me, even though they no longer hurt anymore. I am afraid to be left again. I am afraid of not being good enough. I will tell you the ways in which I hate myself, and not believe a single word you say when you disagree with each and every reason you can tell me you love me countless times, but I will still be afraid of you leaving me. Don't blame yourself. I have to expect the worst, because I always get the worst. When I fall in love with you, I will love each crack in your skin and every freckle of light in your eyes. I will fall in love with the way you look while you're sleeping and the way your mouth curves when you say my name. I can be difficult to love, but for me loving you will always be so easy. All I ask for is that you don't give up on me and in return I will never give up on you. I will love you with my entire heart and if one day you decide to leave, I will still think highly of you, I will remember the kind hearted person you are.