Late night rants

hello.

This is not for you, it's for me.

WARNING: This will contain mentions of mental illnesses, self harm, depressed thoughts, dark outlooks on life, and suicidal/anxious thoughts as well. I will list what ones apply at the start of each rant. don't read if you don't like.

I'm haveing a hard time right now, and I feel bad ranting to only the one person who will listen.

so I've come here, a place to write down my thoughts where maybe someone else will be able to relate.

I don't know how many of these I'll do, but we'll see. there will be at least one.

Now keep in mind while reading this:
1; I am Dyslexic. writeing can be hard but I still love it. feel free to point out my mistakes so I can fix them, but don't be a d*ck about it.
2; It's late at night. my brain is messed up. I'm trying to make myself sleep. My thought process isnt 10/10 so what I written might not make sense. But again, this is for me, not you.