Darker Nights

My dreams have faded into darkness. My heart is numb. My mind has built a cornucopia of depressing thoughts. I try to keep my mind from wondering to the dark. It's like I like the pain I inflict on my self!!! Is this the reason I shut people out I try to tell my self it's cause I like being alone and that if I Shut people out I won't get hurt but I'm clearly already hurt!!!