biggest breakdown point in my life
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Last published Sat, Aug 2, 2014
basically this is my dairy of a small portion of my depression years..I got very angry and couldn't write anything down anymore so I thought id give wattpad a shot. my instagram is @canyxufixme if you wanna follow me as well, it's a fan account. this story about about my time while I was stuck in hell and never thought i would get out. pushing everyone away because all I heard was "I'm here for you," "stay strong", "you'll make it I believe in you...." I'm so sick of hearing all that bullshit when no ones really there you don't really know how I feel or who I am and you wouldn't even begin to understand so I'm not gonna bother trying to get people to talk to me so please just stay away I'm a bad influence I'm an idiot and just a worthless depressed girl who no one cares about and no one wants. enjoy my pointless story.
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