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In The Dark

Brooklyngirl1026

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Reads 298
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Parts 42
Time 1h 6m

Brooklyngirl1026

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adultthemes cutting depression newadult poems sad selfharm suicidalthoughts suicideawareness youngadult

People always say, 'There's no reason to be depressed.' or 'what do you have to be depressed about.'

alot of the times its, 'you seem fine to me.' yes, I do seem fine, but I'm breaking underneath the surface.

They don't see behind the mask we all hold up. 'Everyone gets these feelings.' yes they do, but some are worse than others, yet its pain nonetheless. 

They don't understand what goes through our minds when we do things they think is crazy, like cutting. They don't understand that when we look in a mirror, we hate what we see. Or when you cry yourself to sleep at night for reasons that are still unknown to you. 

Those feelings of sadness, loneliness, desperation, anxiety. 

Those fears of being abandoned by the ones you love the most, or being a burden because you're sharing your feelings. 

They don't understand.....

But I do. 

This book is for all those people that feel even one of these. You are not alone. 

*TRIGGER WARNINGS*All Rights Reserved

adultthemes cutting depression newadult poems sad selfharm suicidalthoughts suicideawareness youngadult

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