I get lost inside my mind

Do you ever wonder
Why someone does the opposite?
You love them and they love you back
But that's just An act
It's a slap to the face
However you see it
You get turned down like it's your fault
No consideration
Just left there empty
Pretending everything is fine
But it's not
Crying because you felt so alone
No one to hold you
You start to have mix feelings
What to do?
Where to go?
What's my use?
I think hard enough but I'm stuck
To the point where I can't go be me
That old me...
Alone looking for all my pieces
All my reasons
To go be the happy,silly, sometimes annoying guy I was
Far from it though
only it feels like a crime
To lose yourself
And getting it taken away from you
For one reason
Love...
I don't hate love
It's part of me, who doesn't love?
Only cold hearted people
The ones that use you
For experience then throw you away like trash
Like a spider that's caught their prey
Sucks the life out of them
Then discards them
I'm a man but one with feelings
One that is confused on how a person can easily accept what has happened
Many things transpire but I'm just a
Bird flying away to find myself