Substitute Lover

Love comes in a very unique and special way. But to be a substitute lover while finding the real one? Is that possible? Will you take your self in the picture or get your ass hell away from it? How can you fight for yourself and protect it from everyone. How can you take a hold of your growing feelings knowing that in the end your the only one losing? What would you do if the happiness that you only felt in your life might kill you? Killed in a different way though, the dreaded kind of way--- emotional kind of way. Pain!.